Both sides Now

If only everything in life was clearly signposted and marked out.
If only everything was transparent and obvious.
Hop-On or Hop-Off.
I am excited about seeing you again. You know how I feel about you.
But I am also sad about leaving, about returning to a life, a career that I don't really want.
Contradictory you say? Perhaps.
The truth? Definately.
I don't know what more I can do or say to comfort you.
Maybe I am just not good at being a boyfriend.